[INCLUDE TH/speedbar.blogme] [htmlize [J Gender.html] [P I'm genderless (or gender-agnostic) and sexophobic, and I'm trying to get (more) out of the closet about that.] [P I live in a city - Rio de Janeiro - where people think that if you're not interested in sex then it's because you are either religious or an inferior.] [P I've been a "militant sexophobic" since late 2002. Quite a lot of things have changed around me in these years, but that is a long story that I'm not going to tell now.] [P In the late 90's I used to hang around with angry militant lesbians. With them - and with terrorists - I learned that when you're part of a very tiny minority with no visibility at all then your strategies have to be very different than when you're part of a well-known, respected minority. And if you're a minority of one, then things are even more different - for example: being loud and unpredictable often works well, and trying to be well-behaved works very little. You need to "exist" - and the key points for that are visibility and self-esteem. Also, there's no group to protect - and "Fortune favors the bold".] [P Gender - as something separate from sex, and independent of physical appearance - is something that so few people from my city understand that I had to stop mentioning it. Being openly sexophobic already offends too much - I have placed myself outside of the courting hierarchy; I've rejected the common values. And I'm looking for kinds of relationships that people from my generation have learned to say, "that doesn't exist".] [P (2007may17)] [# 2008jun22: Goodbye, real world. I spent four years there, in cheap jobs among stupid people with huge egos. They used to say that there was where the real money was. What a waste. What a lie. Die, real people, die. 2008sep25: I will never pass. I just need to stand 40 more years. Then I'm free. http://www.amptoons.com/blog/files/mcintosh.html #] ]